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The basic premise of Transformatology® is integrating the divine into our daily lives. Transformatology® proposes that all of our issues and problems are divine gifts that exist only for the purpose of leading us to a state of union with our divine essence. We can call this union enlightenment or awakening or whatever other term suits us. Transformatology® is a technique that helps us first see the divine pattern behind the events in our lives and then apply divine energies to the system to get us more aligned with our soul purpose.

Transformatology® works on both the mental and emotional levels. By uniting our minds and emotions, we build the base of the pyramid that has our spiritual aspects at its apex.

Avoidance is a technique that most of us have spent lifetimes mastering. We all know that people seek pleasure and avoid pain. All species seem to do the same. It is a natural thing to do on the physical level. Emotionally, we do the same thing. But there is a problem. When we avoid our emotional pain, we still have it. Unfortunately, we must revisit our emotional pain on some level in order for us to 1) learn the lesson embodied within it and 2) reintegrate a missing part of ourselves that was rejected along with the experience that triggered the emotion.

An example from my life: my father abandoned my family when I was a small child. He was very cold and uncaring during the whole episode. My reaction was to deny the pain that I felt and con myself into feeling lucky that I didn't have this strict father figure around. In many ways my life was more interesting without him and I am truly lucky that he left. So, I intellectualized my pain away. I also ended up growing up too fast.

When my dad told me he was leaving, he took me to a river for the talk. He wanted me to throw rocks into the river as he told me he was leaving. I really saw no need to throw rocks into the river at that moment in my life. My dad was leaving forever and I was five years old. Fuck the rocks and the river, my life is disintegrating. This led to an avoidance of physical activity and sports. It was as if physical movement would distract me from my pain. And a part of me just wanted to hold on to that pain. So I froze up physically at that moment and lost some of the natural joy of being a child. I lost the ability to throw rocks into the river with dad. That turned into not being interested in playing catch with the other boys which turned into not being good at sports. This inactivity turned my body into a chubby one and that earned me rejection from my peers. This, in turn, led me to turn inward and avoid sports even more. So I retreated into a position of, “I am smarter than all of you. I am reading important literature here during recess while you all are chasing a stupid ball around the yard.”

So, I needed to 1) learn the lesson embodied in all of this pain and 2) reintegrate the missing aspect of myself that was denied. One lesson that this episode taught me was that I gave up on simple, physical joy because of the emotional pain I was feeling. I did not want to feel pain, but by not moving—by freezing up—I kept the pain all within me. If I would have participated in sports, all of the energy that turned to fat would have been expressed in a healthy way. It would not have ended up on my body. So one lesson was: Move! Moving is good. But my whole physical/emotional system says, “Don't move, it will hurt.”

And, who will hurt? The kid will hurt. The five year old kid is the missing aspect of myself that was denied. What was denied? Pain and hurt were denied. Vulnerability was rejected. Somewhere deep down, I decided that I had to be more like an adult in order to be empowered. As a little stupid kid I had no chance against all of the shit they could do to me. Only by being smart and wise to the ways of the world could I survive emotionally. So, play was out. Being serious was in. I killed my inner child at age five. I repudiated him and exiled him. And now I need him back.

But bringing him back means bringing back all of the reasons for exiling him in the first place. And we do exile our inner children for very good reasons. They are full of pain that we would rather not feel. We would really rather believe that we are smart adults who are “in control”. We all wish to be in control of ourselves and our environments.

Newsflash: You are not in control. Control is an illusion. Control is only us putting up artificial boundaries to try to manipulate or limit ‘all that is', or the divine. Since we are divine, control only serves to limit us.

Another newsflash: The pain buried within our inner children, who are always with us, can be cleared out to amazing degrees if we are brave enough to take a short visit to it.

By trying to control the amount of pain we feel, we only bury it more deeply within us. Everyone who has any fundamental grasp of the human condition probably already knows that. It is axiomatic. The thing most people don't realize is that this pain can be alleviated without years of emotional processing/therapy.

Transformatology® is a system wherein we view everything as divine. Everything has a meaning and a purpose. All energy is divine and everything is energy. It is only a matter of seeing the divinity in everything.

We all know that resistance is at the root of suffering. It is natural to resist pain. It is natural not to want to feel the most intense suffering from childhood. But if we resist these things we do not eliminate them. We only allow these aspects of separation to run on a continuous loop in our emotional and mental systems. We prolong the acute suffering of a moment into the chronic suffering of a lifetime.

 

 

 


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