All healing is emotional and that's why a lot of people never experience the healing they are seeking.
You Don't Remember the Depth of Your Vulnerability
Most of us remember a lot of events in childhood that are at the root of our issues. We may remember being hit by our parents or rejected by other children. We might remember being made fun of by children or adults and we do have somewhat of a memory of how it felt when those things happened.
But we are remembering those events through the filter of the emotional armor we have constructed as a result of the trauma we vowed never to experience again.
When you were a child you had a weak ego. Things other people said got through to you on the deepest levels and impacted you deeply. You were badly hurt on emotional level, more hurt than you can imagine now. The emotional pain you experience now is just a faint echo of the pain you felt as a vulnerable child. That's why we do everything not to feel that pain.
If you are willing to feel it, you can clear it forever.
Most of us are not taught how to heal ourselves emotionally. We are not taught that re experiencing trauma will release it forever, if done correctly. We are not taught that all healing is emotional. We are re directed into the mind, the seat of ego.
When we go through deep emotional healing it can get rough. Sometimes the feelings are so deep that we feel we can't go on. It feels like reliving the issue will kill us. That's because this is how terrible the original trauma felt to that vulnerable child you were at the time. But if we breathe through it and resist the urge to suppress the feeling, if we say YES to the feeling, it will pass. And when it does pass, a huge weight is lifted. It's like releasing a vampire that's been attached to you your whole life.
When the issue finally does release there is often a cascade of positive feelings and healing in the body, mind and emotions. Only then do you see how worth it it was to go to these depths and do this challenging work. All healing is emotional and we need to be brave to feel what needs to be felt until we regain our authentic selves.